April 16, 2011: God Breaks Me Down to Build Me Up Again

Yesterday's food:

Friday, 04/15/11: Bed at 10:30 pm/up at 8:00 am

God time? Yes

[P] Chicken sausage

[P] Chicken breast

[V] Broccoli

[V] Mixed veggies

[V] Mixed veggies

[V] Onions

[F] Apple

[F] Apple

[F] X

[St] Kashi

[St] Kashi

[St] Brown rice

[St] Acorn squash

[D] Skim milk

[D] Skim milk

[Sn] Mi-Del GF/SF pecan cookies

*[Sn: PURE SUGAR] Ice cream

[Nightfood bar] Yes

[W] Four cups (including tea with creamer)

Thursday, 04/14/11: Bed at 10:30 pm/up at 8:00 am

Didn’t track 

Wednesday, 04/13/11: Bed at 10:30 pm/up at 8:00 am

God time?

[P] Chicken (Lean Cuisine)

[P] Al Fresco chicken sausage

[V] Carrots (Lean Cuisine)

[V] X

[V] X

[F] Pineapple (Lean Cuisine)

[F] X

[F] X

[St] Mi-Del GF/SF Pecan cookies

[St] Risotto

[D] Skim milk

[D] Skin milk

*[Sn: PURE SUGAR] Starbuck’s ice cream

[Sn] X

[Nightfood bar] Yes

[W] Three cups (including tea with creamer [x 2]

Well, I've certainly been slacking off my program. I hope to get at least one day in next week in which I meet all of my macronutrient goals and come in at or under my calorie goal, too (although I'm not sharing that part with you). I weighed in around 180 (180.2) pounds again today, so I'm about the same weight as last week but have leveled off, which usually means that I might actually lose next week if I put my mind (heart and soul) to it.

I'm acutely aware when I don't blog for a few days. I feel like I'm abandoning myself on those days as well as anyone who might actually be reading this blog. I'm also seeing a pattern in my food tracking of not making wise choices in terms of balancing my macronutrients throughout the day. For example, today I had two bowls of Kashi at breakfast (i.e., two starches), and then I had a nonetheless yummy PB&J sandwich with two pieces of bread (i.e, two more starches). I actually had a thought the other day -- God forbid I should entertain it! -- that I could understand, and might actually try, the Overeaters Anonymous tradition of planning one's food one day or more in advance and then committing it to a sponsor. That always seemed too militant to  me, but God continues to break me down, open me up, and build me back up again, a new person (there's a beautiful song about that process by Francis Dunnery). So, if I keep having that thought, I'll do the same as I always do: I'll assume it's God's direction in my life and act on it :-)