July 30, 2011: Yep, I'm Still a Compulsive Eater

Yesterday's food:

God time? No

Exercise? Yes (swim)

Points: 30/36

[P] Hot dog

[P] Hot dog

[V] Brussels sprouts

[V] X

[V or F] Banana

[F] Blueberries

[F] Blueberries
[F] Raspberries

[St] Kashi

[St] Pizza (Lean Cuisine)

[D] Skim milk

[D] Skim milk

[Sn] Skinny Cow Dreamy Clusters

[Sn] Fudgesicles
[Sn] Fudgesicles
[Sn] Fudgesicles

[Nightfood bar] Yes

[W] One cup
Poundage lost: 7.4

Yep, I'm still a compulsive eater. I see it in how I handle the Fudgesicles. They're safe both for my diet and for my non-sugar intake, but I interact with them just like I interact with anything made of sugar: I eat it quickly, mindlessly, and compulsively. So, the behavior is still there; only the object is different. So far I'm OK with that, but it does disquiet the back of my mind to know that compulsive eating is still a part of my makeup. I guess I thought (apparently in some alternate universe) that I or God would be able to cure that part of me, although I know that as with any other addiction, compulsive eating can only be arrested. I wish I could fine it or give it a ticket, too, LOL :-) However, as long as I compulsively eat something safe that doesn't trigger me to eat more and more of it, like those dreamy crunchy Klondike bars do, or to eat other stuff that's bad for me, I can live with that.

I kind of coasted through the announcement yesterday that I started another blog: Fleurs-de-Lisa. I'm actually really excited about it, although my primary commitment still remains here :-) It will be hard to keep that balance, but this blog is more than half way done, so I think I can do both. Who knows? Maybe I'll keep going with this one, but I doubt it. I struggle with having fun in my life, so the beauty blog will give  me a huge dose of that. I haven't even really gone "live" yet, and I have 16 followers who believe in me enough, and who want to support me enough, that they've signed up "blind." Please, Lord, help me deliver a fun and informative beauty blog! I get to be shallow on-line! How fun is that? But, really, I shouldn't put myself down. It's a valid hobby, maybe even more so than hobbies where people just collect stuff but never use it.

BTW, I added a gluten-free recipe to my recipe tab: Rice Krispie-Coated Chicken Tenders :-) Hope you like them.